Strong Like You

You're strong.
So strong.
And I wish I was too.
I wish I was strong like you.

I wish I was strong enough
to tell it like it is.
Strong enough to tell you
that this is about you.
Strong enough to tell you
that I might be
just a little bit
in love
with you.

When I'm with him
everything feels so wrong.
I want to love
and need him
like I love and need you,
but I just can't.
Those three words
lose their meaning
so quickly when you're not here.
And I wish I could tell you.
Honestly,
I could sing it to the world
sing them every piece of my heart
and I'd be fine.
But I could never
look in your eyes
and say "I love you."
Not the way that I mean it,
no.

And I know the feeling isn't mutual.
I know that you look on at him
with eyes that are just for him.
And I sigh.
I know that he's better for you.
I know that he's the one
that's got to hold you tight
as long as he has you.
Because,
he's the luckiest person
that I've ever met.

I wish I was strong like you.
I wish I could walk up to you
and say the words I mean so much
and not worry about what you'll say.
Not worry about what you'll think of me.

I'm so afraid of going home.
I'm so afraid I'd lose you.

I don't want to be that story,
the "Best friends,
ex friends to the end,
better off as lovers
and not the other way around"
I don't want to miss out
on your smile.
The way you hold yourself together.
I don't know what I'd do
with a couple more months without you.

Never forget.
I lied to you.
When I told you
how I am.
And you asked if I'd ever
loved another girl.
I said yes,
and I said it wasn't you.
I lied to you.

But I'd rather see you happy,
and I hope he never lets you go.
Because I know
that I'm not what you need.
I'm unstable.
I'm a variable.
I'd rather see you happy
than nothing at all.