Makeup

As makeup runs down your cheeks,
you find that you are lost again.

Don't kiss me.
my lips are dirty
with the tears that fell
while you were gone.

Don't touch me.
My arms are dirty
with the blood that dripped
while you were gone.

Don't look at me.
My eyes are dirty
with the god I looked to
while you were gone.

Don't talk to me.
My tongue is dirty
with all the lies I spoke
while you were gone.

Try to make your way back home.
Found that you're alone.

Pools of black
roll down my cheeks.

Pools of red
roll down my arms.

Pools of light
roll from the sky.

Pools of silence
roll from the lips
that used to say so much to you.

Make the pain go away
I can't be saved.

When I look at you
I see the tears.
Not the love.
When I look at you,
I see the makeup on my cheeks.

When I look at you
I see the blood.
Not the smiles.
When I look at you,
I see the scarlet on my sheets.

When I look at you
I see the false deity.
Not the security.
When I look at you,
I see the putrid sky.

When I look at you
I see the lies.
Not the laughs.
When I look at you,
I see every word I said that made you die.

Let this be your night,
We'll let them die

And maybe the tears
just weren't worth crying.

And maybe the blood
just wasn't worth drying.

And maybe the security,
just wasn't worth finding.

And maybe the lies,
just weren't worth lying.


Then how come now,
I just feel like dying?